The Road Bandit Project is the hardest thing I have ever tried to do in my life. I feel like a failure that hasn’t truly failed yet. So much potential lies ahead, only problem is, I’m not moving forward.
The Road Bandit Status
It’s embarrassing to admit that I am out of shape, broke, and have shades of gray in my hair due to stress. It’s also embarrassing to admit that I have wasted away the freedoms that I sacrificed everything to create. I’ve wasted away valuable days in a comma of uncertainty. Where am I going? What am I doing? Why can’t I get it together? The Road Bandit Project is again at a stand still.
Self-motivation is an art.
Nobody is going to help me or tell me what to do. Nobody is going to yell at me if I don’t follow through on my goals. Its up to me to wake up and get going on these problems I face. I’ve never really had trouble in the past with motivation. If there were things I wanted to get done I would just simply do it. If it took an hour or three days I would just do it. Now, for some reason I can’t do something as simply as getting an oil change. The mind is a tricky bastard that when provoked can turn into your own worst enemy. Let negative thoughts fill your head and there wont be any room for positive and productive thoughts to get in. I have to hold on to something and stay focused on it and not let the other distractions: money, doubt and laziness get in my way.
Now or Never
It’s hard to stay in the moment and realize how lucky I am when I am failing on what I set out to do. How many more times am I going get burned before I realize that fires are hot? For me to truly understand success it seems I always have to fail first. There is a great song by Hoobastank. The title is “Who the hell am I” The main lyrics are “Who the hell am I if I cant be me”. It’s a damn good way to look at life. Only problem is… it’s hard to keep that outlook when everyone around you pushes and pulls you toward their own perception of what you should be.
So if I cant be me then who the hell am I? Well I am Randy Primm!…and I am a Road Bandit. An outlaw from the common way of life… totally invested in my own dreams. I dip in and out of society as I travel these lonely roads. Moving forward I let the past fade away, knowing that soon tomorrow will be mine. I might be lost right now but I will soon find my way…will you?
P.S. If you like or dislike this post, let me know… don’t be shy. Your comments keep me company out on the lonely road.
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Bandit:
It time to pull your head out of your ass and hit the road…. Loved the up dates you use to post on u-tube……. Can’t wait to see some new ones….. The ass cleanser can’t be your last…. Who know what the future holds…. I certainly don’t……. You’re young….. Live with no regrets….. Make stupid mistakes….. Learn from them then move the fuck on…… Now get out there and make something good…. Your fans await….
Randy you freakin road bandit you – WAY TO GO, Dude. I love your video, I love that you admit when you’re stalled and get going when you can…that’s all it ever is.
I got to the stalled place a few years ago and hit the road myself…spent three years on walkabout and to some degree it will now be my permanent state, although it’s nice to have a base camp again.
Rock on!
To empathize, this is how a lot of us feel everyday. It’s hard to live you dream.
Scottie!! The babies!! Where the hell are they?!!
Dude you’re in it right now, you’re doing what u love. See more of the road ahead, never limit yourself, YOU have the skills, knowledge and drive to survive what you have set out to do. Remember “No Limits” my friend.
You are doing what I wish I could do. I wish I could go around and play poker and pay for my adventures that way. In the meantime I will follow your adventures. Keep up writing and we will follow. Keep up the pictures they are nice to see. I have a saying I use “Work the solution, not the problem.” You will make it.
Steve
I agree with Wandrin that your candor is refreshing. If you’re on the road you want to be on (YOUR DREAM), and you fall down, just get back up and keep on going. And in that “keep on going” mode, let go of the fact that you fell, because everybody does. It’s that you get up that counts. And take a break every now and then!! We all love you, and if you had a “donation button” set up, I would contribute, just because I want to, and not anything to do with where you are right now! Maybe some people are living their own washed out dreams vicariously through you. Not me. I just want you to be Randy Primm!!
Your candor is refreshing. You are confirming to yourself and others that you have to live YOUR DREAM and YOUR LIFE.
Live life. Love life. Live love.